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Paris Jackson opens up about 'really ugly' side of her addiction that compromised her 'moral compass'
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The daughter of the controversial King of Pop, Michael Jackson, has opened up about how her addiction sent her moral compass “right out the window”.
Paris Jackson admitted on Jack Osbourne's Trying Not to Die podcast that how she behaved whilst addicted to drugs and alcohol was “really ugly”.
Paris spoke brutally honestly about her behaviour in the depths of addiction
She opened up to the podcast host with ease, potentially because the pair have a lot in common, as they are both the children of world-famous musicians and struggled with addiction from a young age.
The 28-year-old model and actress explained to Osbourne: "It's really ugly behavior in a moral way, because I was raised to be kind — not nice, I could give a s**t about being nice — but kind.
“Being kind and looking people in the eye and asking the waiter their name so you can write it down on the receipt later, just little things of, just like, how do you treat people?"
Recalling how she behaved and felt about it during her most difficult years, Jackson said: "Oh, I may be a liar, a cheater, a piece of s**t, a thief, whatever, but I do have a moral compass, like, I was raised right in that way.
"What happens when I drink is that goes away. That goes right out the window and I become a very vindictive person."
Jackson first underwent treatment for addiction at the age of 17 after noticing "a lot of tell-tale signs" that her peers at high school were not experiencing.
Tragically, she revealed: "I struggled with self-harm for a really long time before I ever had my first drink or drug,” and: "I had weird relationships with overeating and food as a young kid."
Describing the potentially ugliest side of her character brought out by addiction, she said: "There was this overall reachy, graspy energy that I only ever see in other addicts," it was like “reaching for something outside of yourself."
The singer-songwriter now shares her sober lifestyle online
Since January, Jackson has been sharing a glimpse into her sober lifestyle and how she has learnt to "live life on life's terms" on social media by uploading clips from her day-to-day life.
Her content shows her spending time in nature with friends and relaxing alone.
However, in the caption of one of her Instagram posts, she warned her followers that "getting sober ain't always the indication that life is perfect.
Opening up about how she struggled at the beginning of her sobriety journey, she said, "A few years in it all got very very hard. for what felt like an eternity. and i didn't have the same survival skills i was used to having to cope. i had to learn to live life on life's terms."